I’m also just really fascinated constantly by the idea, and this is in conversation, you know, I’m not challenging the way our government works in this area, but in conversation it’s fascinating to me…
Kerry Washington being great on Real Time with Bill Maher! She spoke TRUTH on Affirmative Action!
the entire clip: http://youtu.be/v2Czj-_Sdmw
- (via skeletales)
Yea so that was a little misleading.
I know I’ll never be good enough for anyone, but I would like to think that I will be. I’m nowhere near a perfect individual, but I strive to improve on something all the time, even if it is a little thing. For example, I used to get out of bed, but not do anything…using the excuse that I “just woke up and I need to time to wake up all the way.” Now, I do at least one significant thing so that I won’t be lazy around the house. I know that seems dumb, but it really is a habit that a lot of people have that can be detrimental to one’s day. Because you’ll say “I’ll start doing whatever I need to do in 20 minutes after I give myself time to wake up”, but then that 20 minutes plus some has passed and you’re still sitting on your ass doing nothing. So for me, that was a big accomplishment because I find that once I get up and do that one thing, it leads to doing other things. But back to my original thought. I know I’ll never be good enough, I know that whatever I do will never be quite enough to get the acknowledgement I deserve, but I’m going to jeep trying anyway. I’ve come to realize that the smiles on my face are not, in fact, fake because in those moments I am genuinely happy. I’m not going to fake smiles anymore because I’m not going to pretend like everything is peachy with me at the moment if it isn’t. That shit doesn’t get me or my situation anywhere. If I’m upset, I won’t smile, but I won’t bitch either because that definitely doesn’t get anything done. In other words, I’m just getting better at being me and truly expressing the way I feel…well, as far as facial expressions go. Will I ever get the chance to put everything that I feel in words? Probably not. I won’t get the chance to be at a moment where anyone will truly listen to what I have to say and understand that I’m not accusing anyone of anything or that I’m not “coming at them”, I’m just simply stating the way I feel. I’ve been holding this secret for so long that only my best friend Phillip knows because when I try to explain how I feel about myself and about other things, I don’t like being told that I’m stupid or the way I feel is stupid. So, will I get up here on Tumblr and speak generally? Yes, but I won’t share many details. I treat this thing kind of like a diary, mostly because I don’t have a lot of followers and I don’t think people really pay attention to what I have to say anyway. I can’t post everything I want to on Twitter because people always think I’m coming at them when the truth is, the only people I ever rant about on Twitter are the people who don’t have one. I do that so whatever I’m upset about will be over and done with by the time I talk to them next. I don’t believe in holding grudges and I don’t believe in going to bed angry. It’s ok to dislike someone, but not to hold a grudge…and yes, there is a difference. Anyway, the point of this whole post was to make myself feel better…and I do…somewhat. I still feel some kind of way about some things, so I’m going to spit out some random shit and be done with this post. I wish I wasn’t treated like a stranger. I wish the love songs floating ever so melodiously from the voice box were about me. I wish the distance I was traveling for love would get shorter, rather than longer, with every step that I take. But I’m done. Thanks for listening Tumblr.